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February 2026 - I’m in a serious loving relationship for over a year now. She has seen me dressed, yet as much as she likes having a girls world evening with me, she has difficulty that I transform so well into a girl. She can’t see the real me under my makeup and alter ego. It’s quite unnerving for her. I am fine going without my alter ego as I like being a man and I like doing blokey things. I still love all things feminine. She presents very sexily as a woman and I find her very attractive. I kind of get off on her and her makeup.
November 2025 - I’ve had a handful of really successful dress up sessions after an absence of 13 years. I feel that my maturity has made me look better than ever. I have transformed into a desirable middle aged woman! It’s not something that I want to keep doing as I prefer the male me and I enjoy that. I still possess my makeup skills. I have a situationship with a female and she knows about me but is not so approving. I will let her discover my alter ego in her own time. She is discovering how complex I really am !
August 2025: Got dressed up again today. First time in 13 years. I still got it !
Even though I haven’t been dressing up for over 13 years now, I still like to keep a toe in the water. I still admire the convincing tranny. I’m captivated by the feminine look
I have been into women's make up since I was a young boy and that is my main interest. I am very good at makeovers and have perfected the technique for the last 25 years on myself, other women and other transvestites
I do get very titillated by the female form and specifically I just love them in: Fur, Scarves, Leopard Skin, Eye wear, False Lashes, False Nails, French Nails, Lingerie, Stockings, High Heels, Basques, Corsets, Hoop Earrings. I get turned on by the mature Joan Collins type with full makeup and power earrings. I also love a provocative strong sexy intoxicating perfume.
I do like shopping in posh shops with girls and I have a very good fashion sense
I love the shoes of Kurt Geiger and I mostly like all colours beige.
I have really been trying to analyse myself and my behaviour in respect of my make up fetish.
I don't think I can categorise myself as truly a transvestite. I kind of stumbled into it as a result of my sister dressing me in a wig, red lipstick and eye liner when I was around 13. I was captivated by the person looking back at me in the mirror. I started to search around my sisters bedroom for cosmetics to recreate the look. I used to carefully watch my mum applying her foundation and her lipstick and again I found this ritual captivating.
I then just began to take more interest in women and fashion. As I got older, I would experiment more and more with any cosmetics I came across and before long I had amassed quite a collection.
I would make special trips to London and anonymously browse the posh shops and would make a special purchase and bring it home with me.
I never wanted to BE a woman. I just wanted to create a beautiful woman in the mirror. This became quite a time fulfilling pastime. However, at this point, I had never identified clearly how to categorise myself.
After my wife discovered me and my intoxicating ritual (1999) this kind of changed my outlook. This has been my closely guarded secret until the age of 35. Upon my subsequent divorce, I decided to tell any significant partner from then on about my secret. This worked wonders for some relationships and was disastrous for others. All in all, I think I was able to fulfil some wonderful sexual experiences as my alter ego and got to experience lesbian fantasies on quite a few occasions. It certainly made the bedroom a lot more colourful. I really enjoyed make up sex. I would get me and my partners fully made up to perfection and with all the accessories and the toys, Long False Nails, Long False lashes, Lustrous Wigs, Intoxicating perfume and with a few glasses of wine in side of us, we would embark on a session lasting all day, taking photos. It was massively intoxicating.
Sadly, for what ever reason the relationship failed, there have been 2 of my partners who have resorted to blackmail and denial that they ever enjoyed our colourful bedroom fun. They never let on at the time. They were fully consensual at the time and gave no indication that they were unhappy with it. In fact, quite the opposite
At the present time, January 2023, I am in manly mode and I have man stubble. I have been mixing mostly in the company of men and I'm feeling very manly and masculine. I've not been yearning to get myself made up even though I've just come out of a relationship of 8 years. I've noticed that when I have low self esteem, when I'm feeling vulnerable or upset, I turn to the make up. I suppose our sexuality changes with our mood I guess. I don’t think I’m actively suppressing my urges to dress they’re just not there.
Although I like to create a feminine illusion with all the make up and clothing, I don't get a kick from prancing around the house all done up. I don't actually want to be be a woman, I just want to create one.
I used to keep myself really smooth all over and to moisturise my soft skin all over. It's a lovely sensual feeling. I like the way my smooth thighs slide against themselves and to feel smooth skin against skin. And then of course to put on expensive stockings over freshly painted toe nail and freshly bathed, shaved and moisturised legs.
Moving on to late 2014. I met a girl who was appalled by all this. We had some rows and we could have easily split. She makes me feel really manly and she wants a real man. I have assumed this role and it feels good. I have had no yearnings to shave myself smooth or give myself a makeover. I would love to dress her up but she's declined. The more I take the dominant male role the less I yearn to have a makeover. I could say I'm on the road to tranny recovery !
January 2016
It's been 18 months and I have made a discovery. The yearning to get into female mode has left me. The less you do it, the less you want to do it. Isnt that strange? Ive spent so much time over the years dressing up and taking photos yet I just dont think about it anymore, although I love to see a really good, convincing makeover whether it be a male or a female.
February 2017
While I still find the TV/TS community very colourful and exciting I've still resisted the temptation to apply makeup and dress up. I've observed so many people like us and the time, expense and obsession dedicated to looking great as a female. It's extremely narcissistic. Such an obsession. Pictures taken from all different angles, new dresses, lingerie, makeup. It is truly an unhealthy all enveloping obsession.
September 2018
I had an alter ego. I fell into it. It was a trap that I found it difficult to escape from. Melissa Bray was her name.
My sister dressed me in a wig, applied lipstick and mascara. It transformed me when I was in my early teens. I started to explore it further. I looked good and it felt good and it became my secret for decades.
I used to revert to female every time I felt insecure, vulnerable, stressed and insecure. It was never going to be the answer. It wasted so much time and cost so much money for this secret indulgence.
At the age of 50 I met a woman who didn’t want Melissa in our lives. She didn’t lay down any ultimatum but it’s not want she wanted. However, she was the woman for me and I became the man for her. As time went on I became so much more confident as a man, fulfilling a manly role. Doing manly things. I now feel fully masculine with man stubble and body hair.
I still find transvestite and transsexuals very attractive. It’s all about adoring the feminine but I have broken the chain. I never knew it would happen and that I could actually do it. I feel good as I am now.
This doesn’t stop my buying fabulous lingerie for my partner, or choosing lipsticks, mascara and jewellery for her.
Being a Crossdresser has got me into trouble. It’s made the bedroom very colourful and fun but two past girlfriend have weaponised my pastime and used it to blackmail me. That is very wicked.
January 2023
No yearnings to get made up. The urge is no longer there. I’m a proper bloke
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