2023 has been a more steady year for me, I was made permenant at my job in April and things are going well there. I have this year been given the opportunity to present to non LGBTQ employees improving Transgender awareness which has gone down very well. I have now been working full time as Natasha for 3 and a half years and it just feels normal at this stage. I did my first LFF this year with Nigel which was nice, a long way to go but I love to experience new things.
I have now been on hormones for 3 years as I write this but what I feel has really helped along my feminisation is starting Progesterone in May, this has balanced out and restored my libido and I feel has fast tracked the growth of my boobs. This is not prescribed by the GIC and so I went private following the advice of my friend. I have had a number of laser sessions on my face and feel I have made great progress this year with only a few grey hairs to deal with thereafter by electrolysis.
A big positive for me is the lessening of moments and thoughts of doubt. This was on off for my first two years on hormones, not because of the hormones but I just seemed to be uncertain in my direction and I think reflection every once in a while is healthy to ensure things still make sense.
I have begun slowly but surely to start putting up YouTube Videos, 6 at this point, with the aim of helpful advice based on my experiences to date.
The year ahead will be steady again as I get my life on track but some new experiences will definitely be sought out as life I feel is about growth and self exploration.
I have found in all my years (since 2010) it difficult to connect with many people on the scene but that won't stop me from trying, I know we all have very different lives despite the obvious but if you see me out or you want a chat please reach out and say hello. Have a great New Year and lets make 2024 an even better year...x
November 2022
It's been more than a year since my last update so I thought I would update my profile. I secured work at the beginning of 2020 as a work coach helping people overcome obstacles and move their lives forward. I did this for two years until July 2022 when I secured a job with a global financial company I have always respected and wanted to work for and I have been happily working there for 3 months now. The job as a work coach showed me how much I had grown as a person and it was helpful to be putting the focus on helping others rather than just on myself and I feel like I really made a positive impression, some of my customers may never have ever met or spoken with a transgendered person and now here was one who was trying to help them. I had great feedback but It was very tiring as dealing with 10-20 peoples probelms every day can be very energy sapping and so I felt I was ready for next challenge. When I pause to think I am proud of myself of what I have overcome in my own mind....family members in an effort to deter me from going full time said I would never get a job as Natasha and now here I am with my second job and on the best money of life.
I have been on hormones approaching two years now and have been pleased with the result in breast growth and other subtle body changes. I stopped electrolysis at the end of last year as I was not able to do weekly appointments and monthly appointments were just not good enough due to hair growth cycles. I have just started a new laser treatment which is a new type of laser and I am hoping for results within 8 months, I have also started voice therapy lessons and that has been interesting too.
Hormones have taken away much of my desire to a certain degree and I am hoping this will return when I am able to get myself in a better position in my life.
I have been a very different person since 2018 constantly evloving into a more happy person with an understanding the power of thought and happiness as way of life rather than a destination. Too much of my life I have been passive and now I am trying to make things happen and am making efforts to get out there and meet new people.
I am living full time and not part time, I am not looking for random meets as I am old enough and wise enough to see the emptiness in meaningless meets so I seek to know people rather than to exchange lustful moments, that's not to say I have become celibate, just not a victim of my libido.
Therefore anyone who wants to experience new things meet new people and have fun going out please get in touch I would love to hear from you.
I am still interested in bowling or table tennis if anyone would like to play, please drop me a line. Something different...
Saturday 28th July 2021
I decided to volunteer this year for Southampton Pride and had an amazing day, I can't recommend it enough and will look to volunteer next year. It was a great day full of great people with nothing but positive energy. How every day life should be...
July 2021 Profile Update
It's been a fantastic last 9/10 months for me in regards to progress, I have been working as Natasha now for nearly a year and I feel very settled and in dealing with different people every day I don't even think about being transgendered and just get on with things. I think I am doing well and my confidence working as Natasha has certain climbed steeply and I now think of pushing on and getting my life moving further forward after treading water and taking backward steps for so many years of my life.
I was finally put on hormones in December. It wasn't straight forward I must add. The GIC were dragging their heels in helping me and with the waiting times getting longer and longer with 3+ years and still not being put on hormones I decided to take actions myself and contacted the Gender GP. Then my doctor refused to recognise the Gender GP despite their advice being to start me on hormones. I was frustrated but just searched and found another doctors surgery who were prepared to help. I am happy to confirm I have been on hormones now for over 6 months and feel great and am adjusting well. I think there are a lot of challenges when trying to reach a tough goal but if it is important you have to nurture an attitude of never giving up and look for other options when you come up against hurdles. Lukily my new GP has been fantastic and they have a number of transgender patients.
One thing I have noticed is I have not had a photoshoot in ages, if there are any good photographers out there who would be happy to do some photos of me please get in touch. In July I have a place but from July onwards I would need to find a location for photo shoots.
27th September 2020 - Profile Update
After stepping back two times in the last two years getting jobs in male I decided to commit to making it happen. From October 2019 I decided I would keep on applying for jobs until I secured one as Natasha. 120+ job applications and a handful of interviews later and I finially secured one. I think in life when we attempt something that is not straight forward we give up to soon, I took solace in the number of stories I had read about people succeeding and overcoming odds, and I was able to keep going. It is one futher step that I am proud I have taken no matter where my future takes me. I have been working in the office for 6 weeks to date and everyone has been wonderfully friendly and accommodating.
28th March 2019 Profile Update
I thought an update was in order given it had been a while. I finished my job in January 2018 with the aim of living full time as Natasha for the year as a test run, an experiment. I can safely say 2018 was one of the most important years and happy years of my life. I realised by being Natasha or having the freedom to be me every day, I removed it as something I needed to think about....it then freed up time to think about what I want for my life. As a result I started to dream and began to find direction and goals for my future.
I had an interview in a skirt which was invigorating an experience but I found when telling recruitment consultants that I was transgendered I started to get no interviews. Towards the end of the year I began to need money more urgently and so I reluctantly put myself for jobs in male mode and got offered the first 2 jobs I went for. I guess there is still some time needed for some of the average folk to accept transgendered people into their offices. I took a job but have just recently been let go unfortunately so I decided to once more be open with companies about my intentions and I am happy to say I have just secured a position and hope at some point to be able to finally work as me.
I have been growing my hair and through self medication my body has taken a more feminine shape with some boob growth. That said, even though I was cautiously self medicating I succumb to a blood clot and so I have ceased self medicating. I am hoping to be proceeding with Bridging hormones shortly. I was denied hormones at this stage due to my unwillingness to change my name. It is not something I was sensitive about and did not like being pressured into doing it as I feel it should be done as something you want to do not because you have to. Additionally I had to get a new car in February on Credit, and I feel if I had changed my name I may have struggled to get credit. I think the rigid way and path that all transgender girls are being asked to follow is way to narrow and suggest in years to come this will need to change as I do not identify as a woman trapped in a mans body, I am me and I want to be as feminine as I can but I would never see myself as a woman nor do I wish I was. I love being transgendered, I love being me.
My outlook moving forward is extremely positive and hopefully I will be able to live and work as me very soon.
2017
At the beginning of the year I asked the doctor for a referral to the gender clinic and I had my appointment in October. I went up in rush hour on the train to London which was daunting but a great experience and the appointment went better than I could have expected. I have decided that I will quit my job as it has turned out not to be the environment I would feel comfortable as Natasha in, and I intend to go full time from the 2nd week in January for 2018. I say for 2018 as it is a test for myself to see if it is right for me. I am hoping to be on testosterone blockers soon and then hope to start hormones too. Its very frightening but exciting as well. I feel for the first time in my life I am steering my life and has made me feel alive and happy.
Update: I have finally made the leap to being on facebook as Natasha...linked below. I am called Natasha Neon on there as it would not allow me to be Natasha Night.
https://www.facebook.com/natasha.neon
4th October 2016
What an emotional day, just came out as gay and trans to my parents.....I was so nervous all day but they took it better than I could have ever expected. Excited what this means as this might be what I needed to move me forward in life. I am so happy and relieved....
June 2016
Thought it was time to have a profile rewrite / edit. I had planned to take 2016 off from Natasha but decided against it and have been going out again since April. Nice to be out again but I do have a desire to go somewhere new. More detail to follow, but until then if you need a friend say hi as I could always have another friend, good ones are hard to find.
I have written this a few times but here we go once more....I have been dressing since I was very young and it all started when I came across nylons in my pre teens. It started with such a small thing as curiosity which then quickly grew to the point in which I wanted to be close to them. I wasn't great with the ladies and was quite shy so I ended up trying them on for myself and from that point onwards I have been on a journey. Little by little over the years adding to the tights, first clothing, then makeup, then wigs. It seems over the years I have learnt a lot about myself through being Natasha and to that I am grateful, despite the difficulty I have in reconciling it with my male life. I have explored my feelings for many years and have noticed I am different when Natasha, if only at the very least I am happy and much more confident, and although people comment I rarely smile in pictures I often smile when I am Natasha.
My description: I am average height (out of heels), of average build, I have an olive skin complexion which makes me look more exotic than I really am, having been born on these shores. My eyes are hazel and my hair colour can change from week to week though I am usually most comfortable as a brunette.
Likes:
* 80's music
* A good sense of humour
* The Wayout Club
* Live music
* Chocolate
* Kindness
* My photos taken
* Nylons
* A tight mini dress
* Traveling
* Nice smells - Perfume / Aftershave
* A good nights sleep
* A nice curry
* Football
* Family and Friends
* Positivity
* Law of attraction
There are lots more things I like in life but that will do for now. Please say hello if you drop by.
Site design and feature presentation is Copyright tvChix 2004-2024. tvChix is a registered trademark in the United Kingdom, European Union and United States.
