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T-Girl
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General / Everyday wear
Height 5' 10"
Blond (real)
Blue Eyes
Athletic Build (a little over weight but going down)
I have described myself as T-girl because although I can't transition at the moment I would love to.
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PLEASE READ THIS BIT FIRST IT IS IMPORTANT THAT MEANS YOU....
I have had to add this bit because of experience on this site
1) I am a newbie only been out this far for a few months. However please respect I have been living with this All my life over 50 years of hiding, shame, embarrassment, fear and that's already a lot longer than some of you have lived. I had to overcome my own prejudices to even discover it was OK and that happened only very recently. Some people seem to think they are superior because they are "Fully Out" because they are "Full Time" or just because they have a SH*! job or a bloody cold. We all have our crosses to bear and being full time as a relative youngster in enlightened times whilst should be admired in every way does not make anyone superior or mean that its been harder for you. Rant over.
2) Please NO MALE ATTENTION I AM NOT INTERESTED IN MEN if you want to chat in the forums ask first. and don't expect to persuade me in any way I am not a gay guy in a dress.
3) I like to chat to every one including guys but DON'T try to come on to me. NO PICTURE PROFILES are no good please don't contact me I like to see who I am talking with.
4) I like girls (and every thing about them) cant help it its the way it is.
5) Like most T_Girls finding friends is hard, that is why I am here please be my friend. That means sometimes you have to listen to.........
6) As for people who give a 1 to photos well if you intend to hurt people be assured you probably succeeded and that says much more about your sad existence and the type of person you are than it does about me.
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If you have got this far well done please read on
Hello my name is Sally and this is my story. I hope it may help others with their own journey.
As a very young child only 6 or 7 years old I wanted to wear girls clothes and didn't understand why I couldn't. I loved the way the girls looked I liked the way they talked and played together, I so wanted to be with them to be one of them. Of course my parents put me right so I settled for growing my hair long and a new pair of shoes like the ones I had seen my cousin Hilary wearing, which were not so girly that my mother couldn't live with it. I spent a lot of time at my aunts house after school and at weekends. I enjoyed my cousin Hilary's company, a year older than me she was happy to look after me and I was happy to play whatever Hilary wanted, mostly pretending and dressing up games. It was Hilary's dressing up box so I was able to dress up as a girl quite often when we played.
As I grew older we moved away and as is the way of things regular contact was lost and we grew apart. All through my childhood I wanted even longed to be a girl. I hated boys, the way they acted, boasted and bullied, but peer pressure was strong in the sixty's and I was compelled to conform. I hated school and all of my childhood. Puberty bought a whole new load of problems and the surging hormones led to a misplaced connection between being aroused and cross dressing. I had been persuaded that I should be attracted to girls sexually and therefore aroused by being close to girls. What I didn't understand was I wanted to cross dress to be close to girls in a different way. To even be a girl.
Society expectation and nurture made me follow a normal path (whatever that is). I married young and had two children a boy and a girl. But when the urge built up I would cross dress always solitary and in secret. As I couldn't dress at home I would dress and go for walks in secluded places often at night so there was an element of excitement from the risk of being caught.
The marriage failed mainly due to lack of sexual interest on my part and several relationships have gone the same way. Recently I have been working away and had seized the opportunity to dress. I quickly found I wanted to do more to look female and found the more convincingly I dressed the more comfortable and at ease I felt and while the compulsion to dress was strong it was not sexual. I started to research where I could get a wig without the embarrassment of receiving a box through the post with wig written on it. It was by following links that I accidentally came across trans-gender and transvestite websites.
To say I was surprised would be the understatement of the century I had never considered what I was doing to be Transvestite and I had never considered trans-gender as a realistic option. I had wished most of my life that if only I could just die and come back as a girl. So I had never even looked at a web site or researched the TS world. Finding out I was not alone was incredible and so liberating I can't even start to describe.
I took my first steps into the real world with a visit to Dee Selecta to buy that wig. The welcome and support I received was the last piece of the puzzle for me. I was able to be with people who were Tgirl friendly and I could try on wigs. I found my wig and looked in the mirror. It was a very emotional moment a lump formed in my throat (No it wasn't that embarrassing Adams apple) I genuinely welled up because there in the mirror Sally was looking back at me.
I have since been to Manchester concord I have been able to stay dressed for periods of nearly a week and even been to the cinema. I have an awful lot of catching up to do and many issues that I don't know how to deal with yet. But at least as Sally I can have my time now and life doesn't just feel like something I have to do. For the moment I am enjoying just being Sally and passing well enough to mix in the real world I love making new friends and particularly enjoy being accepted by real girls as I love to just chat and shop and be one of the girls.
Why can't I transition? well even though I feel my male life was imposed on me by society and peoples expectations. I essentially went along with it and as a result there are other people who I love very much that rely on the life I have built. I have a responsibility to them so I can't just tear that life apart.
As for sex well I know from experience that once the lust has worn off my sexual interest wanes quickly. I am attracted to girls sexually (something I blame on the hormones) but I am attracted to anything to do with girls because I identify with girls. Recently Sally has attracted some attention from men and not all admirers. I will admit the attention is very flattering but I have never been sexually attracted to men. So it would have to be a dam pretty man to interest me at all and I would never contemplate any sort of sexual act. I would love to meet a T-girl friendly genetic girl to spend time with.
Update
I have met some very attractive T-girls it amazes me just how good some of the girls look, I am so jealous. I cant guarantee I will reply to everyone who adds themselves as an admirer mainly because I have a terrible memory (Yes really blond) please feel free to message me as well. I am so touched by the number of admirers I can't understand why anyone would admire me thank you.
My COGIATI test result is 395 level 5 (TS if the test means anything probably meaningless)
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17/0909
Pictures at Shrewsbury Ciniworld followed by Mcdonalds. As I was alone I was quit nervous but every one was lovely. Next time I may actually go into one of the restaurants for a meal afterward.
20/09/09
Well things are moving so fast thanks to Lovely friends I have met in the last few weeks. I spent my first day out in Manchester. We visited all the best clothes shops from New look to Monsoon and Makeup counters where the lovely girls did colour matches and even a mini makeover. It was fantastic to be pampered by understanding people and I learned more about my makeup than I ever could by random experimentation. We enjoyed a street festival (Harry Kristina). Quit a spectacle with large crowds and free food. Late lunch at the Bank and then a walk to the village for a drink in Via. All day people either didn't notice us at all or they treated us completely naturally, the very few that did a double take or nudged their partner almost always returned a smile if you smile at them. I suppose I am bit naughty like that as after all they have probably had a good look first so why not smile at them. I was surprised at how quickly I felt completely at home out and about as Sally. Strangely I didn't feel the slightest bit self conscious or embarrassed even if someone nudged their friend or partner. It only happened a couple of times that I saw despite the crowds. It has given me the confidence to spend a lot more time out and about.
22/09/09
Arrived at Ciniworld and have decided to see Gamer. It starts at 10 past 7 so I am a bit early.
Well the film was very good the cinema was quite busy but no funny looks or comments in the well lit foyer and the staff were great. The adverts had started when I walked into the theater and rite on Que there was a silent moment as I walked across the front of the seats to the steps. I could hear the ice cubes rattling in my Coke cup (or was that my knees lol). I just knew everybody was watching me but I didn't hear any giggles or whispers but maybe the half light left them guessing.
Lost my bottle a bit on the restaurant front and went back to my car because there were a few small groups of young guys about. Then thought to myself don't be bloody stupid I don't care if anyone does read me anyway. I went back to the Chinese buffet the staff were welcoming and the food was great. There were quite a few people in the restaurant and I did get a few glances but again no one stared or made any comment I heard, nor did I see any whispering everyone just got on with their own meals and conversation. Anyway a six foot blond (with my low heels on) clip clopping around the buffet on her own was bound to get some attention lol. Off to the 24 hour Tesco now to pick up some essentials.
23/09/09
Arrived at Manchester early morning. I wanted the powder to go with the make up I had bought Sunday so I decided to go into town on my own. Without the support of having a friend for company I hadn't realized just how scary it could be. A couple of times all of a sudden I felt very alone but there was nothing for it but to keep going. I didn't feel Manchester was quit as friendly as it had been Sunday and figured it was just because I was on my own, but thinking about it I wonder if it was because many of the people were commuters on lunch breaks or people in town for business rather than locals doing a bit of shopping or enjoying the park. Only had a few looks and only one comment from a lad as he passed. I still spent most of the day in town and most people were lovely. Went on to Concord and a knight out in the village.
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Life is so much happier now. When I have to put on my male role I feel like something has been taken away from me and long to be myself as soon as I can. I don't know but I think this may become a serious problem for me I hope not. I don't want to feel miserable all the time when I have to be male.
01/10/09
Had to be in drab for a few days and really started to feel frustrated and down. Decided to go to the Cinema even though it was only an evening out I got all dolled up and set off to Cineworld. The film was really good "Surrogates" but most of all that feeling of contentment and control returned almost the second I dressed. (oh dear I guess I'm just going to have to admit to myself their is no going back). I had a really good night and feel so much better.
11/10/09
The day has arrived I am so excited to be meeting a RG friend for a day out shopping in Manchester. It was a fabulous day with lots of invaluable advice from a lovely lady who has the most impeccable taste. back to her flat for a bite to eat and eventually decided to hit the village for the evening. Didn't expect Sunday to be that busy but, New York New York was kicking and when that closed we moved on to Axm. Had a fantastic time till 4 Am ish. With out doubt the best day of my life great fun with great company.
14/10/09
Met Susie at 3 pm in Paddy's Goose then on to a shop Susie had spotted to look at some designer end of lines etc. very reasonable prices but unfortunately not much in my size. Stopped for a meal on the way back to the village. Manchester Concord and then out to find a party. Unfortunately the village was very quiet and I got more attention than I wanted from a rather drunk old guy in, New York New York, its a shame but they don't seem to control that sort of customer the way they do in Napoleons. Decided to leave and spent the rest of the night in Napoleons. Bit disappointing really but the night was never going to come close to the previous Sunday.
22/10/09
Drove up to Shrewsbury and went to see Zombieland at the Cinema. Funny film. picked up some bits and pieces afterward at Tesco's. Lovely to be out.
25/10/09
Arranged to meet my RG friend. Woke up to a text message letting me down. Had a really crappy day on my own couldn't even find the top I wanted. Met some lovely people in Naps later on, funny how real girls seem to want to chat and be friendly. Went to drive home to find my battery flat so cost me £40 call out to get me going. A really crappy day with a crappy end.
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well haven't updated recently suppose I was a bit put off by recent events. However I have learned that others have more to worry about than me. My friend Susie has not been well and I'm worried about her health. Estelle I wish you all the best with your treatment.
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21/10/09
Arranged to meet Susie for a bit of shopping in Manchester unfortunately Susie couldn't make it becouse she wasn't well. Went fora wander around the City shops but still couldn't find that top. Took me two and a Half hours to get from the Boddintons car park to the village. Well it did mean passing M&S Debenhams and Primark, and Debenhams has three floors. Really glad i went to Concord as Estelle was there and I managed to catch up with her news. Went on to the most fantastic night in New York New York. Met four real girls and had a blast with them all night, dancing till 4am
29/10/09
Pictures at Shrewsbury to see Jennifer's Body followed by a visit to the Chinese Buffet. Always fun gives the locals something to talk about over their dinner.
11/11/09
Managed to park in the village. walked back to M&S to see if I could find that top I wanted. Internet had shown M&S had some. Unfortunately they didn't look anything like as good in the shop so resisted wasting money on something I didn't want and left. On the way back I had to walk past Primark so I thought I would have a look round. Much to my surprise they had just the top I was looking for, Empire line smock top Cami type liner chiffon with three quarter length sleeves, I love that top. On to Manchester Concord and another good night in the village.
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