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Pre-op Transsexual
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Hi my name is Carmen
I used to be known on here by another name and if we are friends then please feel welcome to add me as a friend, but as of the 27/august/2012 I have gone full time and will be changing my name by deedpoll to Carmen shortly. I felt the need to change profile as I dont want to have anything from my past, a fresh start, new beginnings.
This is all new and exciting, what fears i had have disappeared since telling family and friends about whats going on, replaced by a new optimism on life and what it has to offer. Hurdles will no doubt have to be faced and overcome but i feel like the hard part has been done and i really do look forward to the future.
Having to wait to see the local mental health team isnt so bad as it will give me a couple of weeks to sort out a more suitable daytime attire and make up.
I will probably try and keep a blog on here of what is happening as i find writing helps organize things and motivates, but while im here thanks for the messages and support i recieved so far
oops, I have blue eyes, long dark brown hair, medium build and little dainty size 7 feet
28/08/12
I deleted my old TV profile (7 YEARS I had that profile !) and will be staying on here to catch up with old friends and to stay a small part of the community. I will not be posting anything on the forums as i feel i have enough to worry about then have to deal with internet trolls who have nothing better to do than try and wind you up with brainless comments ( brain before mouth comes to mind ! ), but know there are the genuine people on here that do make a difference, those I will contact direct.
I also went out in public during daylight for the first time today, Asda was my opening stop. It felt great shopping with no problems, well apart from the alarm going off as i left and had to show my reciepts etc which was no great ordeal the security guard was polite and friendly. The highlight was when a child grabbed onto my trolley and the mum said looking at me
" no , thats the ladies trolley "
I just smiled at them and carried on shopping but was buzzing inside.
Because it went so well i then decided to visit a large shopping centre, where i asked at m&s if i could be measured correctly for my bra size, they were really helpful and polite not batting an eyelid.
So after purchasing some everyday essentails and daytime wear I left feeling fantastic.
I also applied online for a change of name by deedpoll, so everything going smoothly.
29/08/12
went and picked up a car i won on ebay today, I had expeted to be feeling nervous turning up at a scrapyard in essex, but no i just turned up and drove away, the guys didnt give me any indication they felt uncomfortable with me or made any remarks.
I also packed up all my old clothes and am taking them to a charity shop.
before i go to sleep and when i wake up, i say to myself
'how great it is to be Ms Carmen ........' I love life !
30/08/12
spent the afternoon walking about in the town centre, it felt great browsing in the shops, still feel ackward chatting too much as i have started to be aware of the depth to my voice still, but it hasnt caused any problems. While in town i booked a session of eyebrow shaping for tomorrow ( must remember to take the charity bags this time ! )
Also phoned more family members to make them aware of my life changes, one, my closest couson ( as luck would have it, is a beautican and insists i go over next week to have some treatments !) said i look just like my sister after i showed her some recent pics and she would have never of known it was me.
Still no phone call from the mental health team to sort this appointment out !
I sign the hard copies of the deed poll document this evening but those closet to me and everyone else are now calling me Carmen already but making it legal is so exciting, just waiting for my next door neighbour to return from work so he can act as witness. Then tomorrow I can pop into the bank, the doctors and notify them of this change, while I am in town having my eyebrows done.
My first regret has been to have put a profile picture up on face book taken a few months ago at a TV club, showing of my stocking tops, I have taken it down now as I don’t think my family need to see that ! and will now only have pictures on there taken since my new life began, normal pictures, hopefully with family and friends . Just realizing what a difference there is from being a undercover cd/tv to a transgendered person and for that reason have decided to carry on this blog off and away from tvchix. I need to come away from the TV community and concentrate on everyday reality.
hopefully there will come a time when I think my experiences may be of help to others, but right now I must come first
Interests:
Shopping, Boots, Office wear, Lingerie, Dressed nights out, Hair accessories, Full Makeup, Convincing, High Heels, Trendy/Modern club wear, Corsets, Nightclubs, I am a smoker, Single/Unattached, Friendship, Art Exhibitions, Museums, Movies / Cinema, Good Food / Wine, Music Festivals / Gigs, Comedy Clubs / Festivals, Historic Places / Architecture, Girdles, I have Tattoos, I have Piercings, Dresses, Skirts, Leggings, Knitwear, Casual Tops, Books & Literature, Kilts
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